Hello, My name is Ruth: Part III

Day's 1-5 are finished. There was so much to unpack in such a few verses! God really packed some truth into the small amount that we have covered. I really never have expectations when I first start a study because I haven't done very many of them and I feel like if I have expectations of what I am supposed to be getting out of the study then I am some how boxing God into the mold I think He should fit. With that said I do not want to go about aimlessly hoping God smacks me upside the head with some convicting piece of knowledge either. I really just do not know how to go about bible studies. So I have decided to quit trying to control what I am supposed to be "learning" and just learn.
Now that I have let go of my preconceived notions of religious revelation that should automatically pop out at me when I open my bible, I feel a lot more comfortable in the study, wading through some heavy stuff. I actually feel like I can relate to this old testament story as if God wrote it for me for this place in my life. There is so much to being a mother, a wife, and a women of God. It is sometimes seemingly impossible to do all 3, but God tells me in Ruth that it is possible. I can provide for my family and serve God. Right now my family and I, more specifically my husband Jason and I are faced with the daunting challenge of trying to follow dreams, God's plan, and look out for our little family's best interest. We are praying God is the one who leads our decisions, unfortunately it is not as easy as a telephone call to hear from God. It is a lot of prayer and scripture reading and even then our humanity can still get in the way of God's best. Fortunately for us though God is amazing and is not limited by our decisions be they the right or the wrong ones. I am comforted by the fact that all though God for bid interaction with the Moabites, he used that time that Naomi spent there to further His kingdom and His Glory. God challenges us to follow Him and even if we don't listen He calls us back. And I am amazed by the hesed that God constantly shows and that even if we are in the wrong place we can still be used to love the unlovable and that God even calls us to do so. All of these facts make me eager to find out what direction God is calling my family and I am confident that if I earnestly seek my Savior in this BIG decision that He will use where ever we end up for a greater purpose (maybe even journeying with someone else like Ruth back to Bethlehem.) I am trying to figure out which women I am in this story Naomi, who superscribed to the grass is greener on the other side mentality, only to be called back home. Or if I am more like Ruth who journeyed into a foreign land that she had no business in but went to any way out of love and trust that the God of Israel was good. Ruth was such a strong, persistent women; I hope I turn out to be more like Ruth in this story personally, but honestly I believe both women to be stronger then me. I am easily swayed by my emotions and find it hard to set one path and follow it. I want so desperately to do what is best for my two little boys and I have my ideal image in my head and I just pray I can open up to what God has in store and that I have as strong of character as either Naomi or Ruth.